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By Steve Sharpton, Parsons Training Center, Tucson, Arizona
PHASE VII January 15, 2019
I’m gonna admit to you...I already broke my darn “diet.” Well, this diet is not necessarily a diet in the sense, but more of a controlled demolition toward my eating practices. Control the calories and eat what you want...that is the Weight Watchers way I guess. Now for the better part of two weeks I was doing pretty well on the subject. The cheat meal I gave myself on Sunday might have been a little too much, but on the other hand it felt good to eat pasta and garlic bread. The thing I was trying to control were the days where I would lose control of everything, the days that I would just say to heck with it and go all buffet style on some fast food joint. I unfortunately fell into that trap again, and it was for all of the same reason that I fell into those traps before. I stress ate, and with the extra slice of hunger that I have these days, it manifested into other areas. I actually skipped a workout and more than anything, I felt bad about that.
Basically, the issue for me and most of my life has been the idea of eating like crazy, for I have a definite food addiction and there are days where it rears its ugly head and makes me want to ravage a plate of food like the Mongols ravaged China. The worst part of the equation is the aftermath, for you know you did wrong and that often leads to a couple directions...you go deeper into the rabbit hole of despair or you continue to fight ahead. Of course, for me, I fell deeper into the rabbit hole. I am not going to say how bad it was for me, but lets just say a full bag of chips and nearly a bag of pistachios perished. Either way, I felt bad for the relapse, for I let it happen for all of the wrong reasons. Work had been absolutely horrid, and I was supposed to get out at 4 p.m. but did not do so until 5 p.m. I was mentally frayed and did not want work out, mainly because I had to get home and take care of my parent’s house as well as get to sleep early AND get some food in me. I just skipped to the food because I had no energy in my heart and mind. Of course, Taco Bell didn’t let me down.
The old me would have thought nothing of this, but the current me is more contemplative these days. I felt rather sick about the excursion and went sleep in a bad mood. Worse yet, I skipped out on work the next day and just kinda walked around, trying to unload some calories. If anything, taking the day off helped me quite a bit as I let my head clear and put in a total of seven miles worth of walking. I did go to Chipotle and got a burrito, but I had a light dinner that night and technically was back on my diet. If anything, stepping back and contemplating stuff really helped with my mindset. I did go to sleep early that night and at least I got some rest before Friday. Either way, where is this leading you might want to say?
Well, even though this was not under the technical term, what I kinda did was meditate the next day. Sure, I did not sit crosslegged in a swath of incense mumbling to myself, but I did challenge myself in a way that would be mind freeing. I walked to and from Chipotle, which was nearly five miles, then walked the dogs and then took another walk after walking the dogs. I felt free and calm and clear, and even though I got in trouble the next day at work, I didn’t really stress too much about the missed day. I basically reset my clock a little, and decided to even do a slight fast for much of my Saturday before feasting on some good potatoes later that evening. I felt better about myself and didn’t fall into the usual trap of “I will reset next week, so time to go get french fries and Field Roast.” Stepping back is not a bad thing, for a lot of people have to do this when they get injured or reshape some goals in their lives. Meditation is really something else.
There will be tons of material about what and how meditation can help you, but I will just use it in the forum of clearing your mind of negative thoughts, and boy did I have a lot of them the other day. For me, walking around with an extra layer of clothes on felt pretty good to me, for the day was unusually warm and I sweated just a little more than normal. After walking the dogs later in the day, which took a lot of work considering my dad’s dog is not exactly the most obedient pooch out there, I kinda forgot about the breakdown I had. By Saturday, I was thinking about what I was going to do on Monday when I reset myself and got back into the gym. Since I am trying to do some plateau busting on Thursdays (BTW, that was the day of my breakdown), I will just simply do it on Monday. Rather than having a cheat meal on Sunday, I will just simply say my cheat meal was Thursday night. While I was feeling pretty horrible about what I had done, it really could have been worse. I think taking that mental health day away from work really got me back on the right path, and while some will say that is money out of your pocket....will money fix your anxiety? Will money fill that void that is created from the lack of a good balance between work and life? I don’t think so, and thus some sacrifices can be made for the sake of your heart and mind. The day off also served as another positive for me, for I put in a couple applications. You see, it is pretty obvious that my job and the stress of it is making less and less of a person, and I truly need to get out of that world if I truly want to survive.
Of course, one cannot make a habit of these types of breakdowns. A person cannot turn their back on what they are trying to accomplish too many times or they will lose their way. I know this for a fact because thesis exactly how I fell into so many traps last year. I opted for the easy way and kept pushing stuff back before I realized I could not do that anymore. I don’t want to pat myself on the back here too much, but I definitely learned something about myself and I have pushed through a major challenge that is going to dog me in this process. There will most likely be other breakdowns like this. But no one ever said this was going to be easy.
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